God sent me a new color in my sixteen candle
i do appreciate it,not enough with only a statement,,that color really help me to face this year.
it mad me smile in all of my pray
i never taste it before, but it was beautiful

now..God took it from me.
may be god has created another better planning.
for my seventeen candle...(aamiin)

:)

a true thing

4 days ago from today 14-08-2011
i had a plan, to meet and to talk with someone...
of course this is not a candle light dinner,, but i know...when it could run well.. it would be romantic enough..

i didn't want to give a rose...
i just wanna share...
i just wanna talk...
i want him to see my eye...to see,how serious i am...
i wanna repair some uncomfortable around recently...
because i wanna see a better tomorrow for us..

i'm not a princes
i am just an ordinary girl
am i wrong? when i expect like what another girls did?
am i wrong? when i also want to have a memorable love story?
and actually...I JUST ONLY HAVE A BOY UNTIL ALL MY LIFE AGES...
i never give this expectation to another one before...bacause i wanted to find the real one, the one who will listen my wish... and unfortunately it was you...

i'm sure i'd tried to keep it...
i never care about what people said...but you are the one who make me listen their voice...i don't...

i just wanna say something...
but you gave me a farewell...

If You’re Not The One Lyrics – Daniel Bedingfield

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I’ll never know what the future brings
But I know you’re here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms


-this song reminds me about memorable stories, the sweetest things i'v ever had, in my sixteen :)-

good bye triple ten

i'v done my best to protect something meaningful for me...
whatever the risk...
i know it was so hard, and create many pains.
i can't tell it to another one, because it will hurt you...
i;v tried to keep your image in front of people view, although i know they have known all things about you before i said a thing
there is no another reason, except my feeling to you...

i know you never care about what i'v done for you...
or maybe you didn't know anything about it.
but i believe all i did for you :)

i'v been really patient enough dear...
i have...
but now, i don't have nothing to do
may be by end this story, i have created something bether for your days and for my days, maybe..
i know you support this choice...
thats why, i never regret it...

our journey has finished, but my journey have just begun \m/