God sent me a new color in my sixteen candle
i do appreciate it,not enough with only a statement,,that color really help me to face this year.
it mad me smile in all of my pray
i never taste it before, but it was beautiful

now..God took it from me.
may be god has created another better planning.
for my seventeen candle...(aamiin)

:)

a true thing

4 days ago from today 14-08-2011
i had a plan, to meet and to talk with someone...
of course this is not a candle light dinner,, but i know...when it could run well.. it would be romantic enough..

i didn't want to give a rose...
i just wanna share...
i just wanna talk...
i want him to see my eye...to see,how serious i am...
i wanna repair some uncomfortable around recently...
because i wanna see a better tomorrow for us..

i'm not a princes
i am just an ordinary girl
am i wrong? when i expect like what another girls did?
am i wrong? when i also want to have a memorable love story?
and actually...I JUST ONLY HAVE A BOY UNTIL ALL MY LIFE AGES...
i never give this expectation to another one before...bacause i wanted to find the real one, the one who will listen my wish... and unfortunately it was you...

i'm sure i'd tried to keep it...
i never care about what people said...but you are the one who make me listen their voice...i don't...

i just wanna say something...
but you gave me a farewell...

If You’re Not The One Lyrics – Daniel Bedingfield

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I’ll never know what the future brings
But I know you’re here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms


-this song reminds me about memorable stories, the sweetest things i'v ever had, in my sixteen :)-

good bye triple ten

i'v done my best to protect something meaningful for me...
whatever the risk...
i know it was so hard, and create many pains.
i can't tell it to another one, because it will hurt you...
i;v tried to keep your image in front of people view, although i know they have known all things about you before i said a thing
there is no another reason, except my feeling to you...

i know you never care about what i'v done for you...
or maybe you didn't know anything about it.
but i believe all i did for you :)

i'v been really patient enough dear...
i have...
but now, i don't have nothing to do
may be by end this story, i have created something bether for your days and for my days, maybe..
i know you support this choice...
thats why, i never regret it...

our journey has finished, but my journey have just begun \m/

SURVIVAL FEAT BUGIL (IPA 5)

first word = SPECTACULAR

congratulation buat para BUGILERS (walaupun gue yakin mereka ga bakalan baca entri ini) yang udah sukses "bertahan" dalam event bugil travelling 27-28 Juni 2010, tripsnya padang-manijau-bukit-padang.

fightingnya mulai dari cari bus yang susah, bus yang dateng paginya lelet as well as participantnya sendiri, terus rumah dita (tempat nginap) yang sumpah demi apa benar-benar rumah yang ditinggalin, lo bayangin aja kita semua pada nyapu semua ruangan, ngeluarin semua sofa, nanggalin gorden, bersihin kamar mandi,minjem tikar ke tetangga, sebelum akhirnya bisa stay..itu cuman awal ya, abistu air yang mendet, lampu kamar mandi yang cuiman modal lilin, kompor yang nggak ada, dan ruangan yang superrrr minim buat 27 orang manusia yang bodynya variatif.

anggap aja kita udah sampai ke fase 'bisa tinggal' yang artinya semua kebutuhan pokok kayak tempat ngelepok,kamar mandi, dan rumah udah already oke buat dihuniin. Sambil nunggu magrib (bukan ketua kelas gue) kami mulai bentuk kelompok-kelompok judi, ada grup catur yang tenang, grup balak yang heboh, sampai grup pak-pik-puk (nggak tau gue nama ilmiahnya) yang corengan, semuanya main di luar, entah laknat apa yang ada di dalam rumah, yang pasti semuanya di luar...kayak disengajain outdoor gitu, padahal....-_-

malamnya :
persiapan buat bakar ayam, thanks banget buat puja kesuma yang cukup berperan dalam proses ayam-ayaman ini, jadi kami cuman tinggal ngebakar & nyiapin sambel kecap yang dibuat dari cabe rawit & bawang merah dan pastinya kecap.
ditengah proses bakar membakar yang disponsori tempurung kelapa,minyak tanah, dan sule tiba-tiba aja hari 'hujan', super sekali

bayangin aja semua masalah udah beres (silahkan imajinasiin sendiri prosesnya), dan kami bisa makan dengan lahap (karna nasi nggak ada terpaksa beli nasi ke tetangga). habis makan gue tidur (kebo banget), waktu bangun orang pada ngehilang. Ternyata anak-anak di luar hidupin kembang api, baru aja gue mau nyusulin ke pusat peluncuran kembang api, anak-anak udah larian ke arah rumah..oh, ternyata kenak damprat sama tetangga yang keganggu huahahahahaha,.masa bodo banget (berhubung ngantuk berat), gue balik kanan bobok lagi. Waktu bangun yang kedua kalinya, ttaunya gue udah ada di tengah lingkaran anak-anak yg udah ready buat main truth or truth, ga ada alasan buat nolak, guepun ikut.

truth or truth :
disini BUGILERS ngebukak semua uneg-uneg, haru banget, apalagi waktunya udah sekitar jam 12-an keatas gitu. Tapi karna gue berhubung ngantuk berat, akhirnya gue cuman ngeikutin truth or truth dengan wajah inoncent dan damai :P hahahahah

Pagi :
entah kenapa bisa pagi, tapi waktu gue bangun, kelihatan banget kalau gue termasuk orang yang beruntung, karna temen-temen ternyata banyak yg nggak tidur (alasanya macam-macam : "nggak bisa tidur", "nggak ada tempat", "terganggu",dll).
belum habis penderitaan mereka karna ga bisa tidur, cobaan ditambah dengan datangnya kebiasaan boker di pagi hari yang tidak peduli situasi sementara wc cuman ada 1 hahahahaha (terpaksalah mereka mencari mushala dan namun akhirnya gagal
juga). Cukup sarapan pagi lontong dan gosok gigi, kami capcus ke bukit tinggi.

kelok 44:
kelok ini membuahkan korban 2 orang teman gue yang sukses muntah dalam otw ke bukit.

Bukittinggi :
makan terus muter-muter (Beneran muter-muter) sampai jam 2.30 kami balik ke bus, ga ada hal istimewa selain uang menipis, bawaan bertambah, perut kenyang, dan 'ketemusiswa kelas lainya di smansa' hahaha. Waktu balek ke bus ternyata anak-anak udah ngeprepare buat ngejutin aulin, "happy birthday aulin :D"

jalan pulang :
ga ada yang special dari perjalanan pulang, gue duduk paling pojok belakang bareng kabid 1 yang kelelahan sangat,, terus tiba di tabing gue turun depan rumah & balek ke pangkuan mama (hahaha lebay abis).

TOP dwh buat BUGIL, GOOD JOB GUYS \m/

my first

sometimes i'm relief when i'm thinking about it.
why?
because i know that he will always stand for me.

but actually, the real condition has different story.
i'll be a big liar if i say i don't love my first very much.
well almost every second i always think about : how to make him happy, how to give more concern, how to be close with, how to have several times together or sometimes about whats he doing, what he likes, whats wrong with me , whats wrong with him, and many others question.
i can't show this feeling with only some words or some actions, maybe i'm not so expert to do that, but i just want him to know that i'm with him.

:(

but,sometimes i see and listen something that i don't want to see or hear come out from the one.
and when i see another boy never give up and always try hard to create wonderful things with his own, i will ask about where the place i can get it.

sometimes, we need more efforts.. its okay for me to forget my important business for just saying hello or hai, as well as it makes happines for this one... this is what i never accept back from... i don't know which one is my position number, 2,3,4,5... but of course i'm not so meaningful for to be number one. :)
he has his studying groups,classmate meeting, or another things that will make me ignore easily, even we have made some plans and i have been here more than 8 months.

i'm trying to understand,i'm trying, i swear.
i'm not the one that really easy to fall in love with someone,
so when i have, you can guess how i'll be like

"just look at me and try to find me"
i can't count how much tears have been the victim.
i don't know until what time i can be so patient

but if I can not stand it anymore, allow me to end this memorable story

good bye kelas 2

teman-teman (sebenarnya buat siapa yang ngeliat blog ini aja sih)

kita pasti nggak bakal lupa 1 tahun di kelas 2 SMA ini,
terutama bagi mereka yang OSIS
pasti bakal rindu masa-masa kerjanya

waktu orang sibuk bikin pr & nyiapin ujian, kita malah sibuk cari tenda dan tempat buat ngadain event.

waktu orang fokus sama pelajaran, kita malah keliling kota buat nyari dana sambil nenteng-nenteng proposal.

waktu orang nyiapin diri ikut lomba, kita malah sibuk nyiapin gorden sama banner (ini sih gue :P)

waktu orang pulang sekolah jam 3, kita jam 5,6 bahkan ngineppun oke-oke aja tuh ya, nggak mandi-mandi juga santai aja ya hahahaha (nggak juga sih)

kelas 2 juga kita bisa jadi seakrab ini, terutama buat temen-temen bugil gue haha, awalnya masuk ipa 5 tu rasanya agak-agak kiamat gimana, tapi ternyata asik juga, walau banyak salah pahamnya, tapi okelah :D

bidang X, i don't know how to say, how to do for this one.. i see this world larger bcecause, i create one to another step from, and i find many unforgetable experiences in. thanks banget buat kerjasamanya, nggak nyangka udah hampir selesai aja jabatan jadi kabid x yang keren (?) ini. goodbye buat salah satu anggotaku 'pelangi', 'jangan lupain bidang x ya nggi :)".

temen-temen osis, aku juga nggak bisa ngeekspresiin gimana rasanya pisah dari kerja-kerja berat yg sama-sama kita kerjain, bukan ongeh atau sok kuat, tapi emang nyatanya hari-hari kita udah akrab sama yang begituankan, chayyooo terus deh buat OSIS 2010/2011. semoga nantik eksekutif & legislatif indonesia isinya kita-kita aja (aamiin).

gini deh yang namanya bersakit-sakit dahulu bersenang-senang kemudian, baru waktu kita mau ngelepasin semuanya berasa cool abis, padahal waktu ngerjainya nyumpah-nyumpah tu ma huahaahahahhaa.

kedepanya bakal banyak ujian (yang ini beneran ujian) yang bakal kita lewatin,. semoga sukses aja deh buat seluruh generasi muda Indonesia terutama buat anak-anak smansa padang yang t.o.p :D
\m/ byee

and...

just try to find me and listen what i say, and then i'll keep as well as respect you for all, at least "thanks" :D

THE MOST***

WHATEVAA, THEY MUST BE ALWAYS AVAILABLE FOR ME :D
* THE TOP of THE TOP

* THE MOST INFULENCE

* THE MOST JOYFUL

* THE MOST FAVORITE

They are not only a part, but they are everythings for me.
Thanks for colouring my life, your existances change me into the one
****
By the way, i do love my self too :P hehehe
it is the most valuable

and this is about chika

Hello all
my compelete name is Friska Andini, but i like to hear people around call me "chika", i don't know why, there is no spesific reason except i love it :D

I do studying at SMA N 1 Padang. like another one did,i want to continue my school to the higher grade and after considering some, i realize that i got interested at social vocational, but i'd decided to be science's student during this shs times,why? because i love numerical (lol) haha.

"i love it, thats why i run it",
sometimes life is very complicated, but i make it simple by just enjoy it :D, its cool to be free and walk in our own decision.

Actually, i can't be separated from comic. There are so many activites and all of them aren't fiction. But comic is different, its unreal, i can stand on it and never get bored, because its totally extremely super and unlimited (according to me). One word "WOW" \(^.^)/

well, i have many activities out of my house.
School + course + organization + ..... + n = predict the answer by your self hahaha
But everything is fun , i just have one time to life so....i want to fill it with many great moments, "my times are my experiences, and my experiences are my memories" :D

i think thats enough about me :D
by the way, i have a boy, and i love him so much.hahaha
****